We've been doing classes from home for over a month now, and I think I adjusted to it as well as I could expect to. I procrastinated on way too much stuff, and as a result I didn't do as well as I'd have liked on some assignments. I'm sure that will continue into finals week. There really isn't anything I can do about it now, though. One of my biggest frustrations with that is that I've always had a tendency to procrastinate, but this semester I was honestly doing a pretty good job of giving myself enough time to complete assignments and do other things. That all basically went out the window once online classes started. Hopefully when next semester rolls around, I'll get back into not procrastinating as much. Most of my professors were very receptive to the fact that most students were going to struggle with the shift to online learning, so that was nice.
I wish we knew when we'd be able to go out without worrying again. I know that a vaccine is likely to take months (if not over a year), and without that, we're all susceptible to more big outbreaks. I'm not really vibing with this whole "living through a major historic event" thing. Ah well. Plus, I'm so worried about my friends and family. I have a lot of older and immunocompromised people that I really care about. Plus, this virus is hitting healthy young people hard sometimes, so it's not like anyone is really safe. This whole thing is a big exercise in trying not to worry about things I have no control over. And then I see soooo many people not taking it seriously, and I'm like 😐. Do they not realize or care that they're only making things worse? Sheesh.
I've been trying to make the most of being at home. It's just my mom, our cats, and I, so it can feel a little lonely. We've been skyping and calling my brother, sister, and grams, so that helps. I come from a pretty big family that gets together a lot, so not seeing them is weird and sad. Plus I just reallllllllly miss my friends. I'm so thankful that this is happening during a time when there is so much technology for staying connected with people.
Once I'm done with schoolwork and have more free time again, I'm going to work on rearranging my bedroom, getting rid of stuff that I no longer use, and getting back into some hobbies that have fallen to the wayside. Hopefully that'll mean singing more, learning another language, and playing the keyboard. One nice thing about not being able to go out is that I've been catching up on some show I've wanted to watch. My mom and I have been watching Stranger Things, and I've been watching a few different anime, so that's nice.
Overall, I've just been trying to look on the bright side. Some days are definitely easier than others, though; in the past, I've been prone to depression, and this situation has been a big instigator for that. This can't last forever,though, and I'm doing what I can to enjoy my life while it's happening. There's a quote from Lord of the Rings that sums things up pretty well, and I put a picture of it below.
This is all pretty wild, and I'm still figuring out how I feel about it. I'm just thankful that most of my friends, family, and myself have stayed safe and healthy so far. I'm also thankful that the semester is almost over. I love learning, but I'm ready for a little break 😅






